watching a “the Locator” marathon it makes me cry and jealous of all these people who find their family members and start to have great relationships with their family. Makes me cry. I wish I had that. I want a father. I want a mother. I want a sister. I want a brother.

I have a wonderful grandmother. She and grandpa raised me but I feel like her daughters always make sure that I remember i am NOT a daughter I am a granddaughter.

I wish I could have a read dad. I don’t want to hurt mine but he doesn’t know me. He knows a seven year old. THat is the last he really knew me.

I wish I had a mother. Mine doesn’t want a relationship. She will email every three months or so. But we didn’t talk from 4 until 18 and now an email every three months or so isn’t a mother.

I wish I had a sister. I have a half sister who has a family that she grew up with. Her dad raised her and she has brothers that way and everything else. She has no need for me.

I wish I had a brother. He was adopted. I friended him on facebook but don’t really talk to him. He has his own life and parents and siblings. I don’t want to butt in and he really has no need for another sister.