@The_Croteau -

The reality is when I started I
really had no intention of leaving Christianity behind. The idea that I
would be where I am today was the farthest outcome that I had expected
me to be in. In fact I tried really hard to cling to Christianity
through the whole process. For
me the process began with our movement toward Messianic Judaism.
Traditional Christianity in most ways seemed wrong….like something was
missing. My thought was that if I believed that god existed then I
believed that he desired me to be the best Christian that I could be. So
my journey began with the thought of “what are god’s expectations for a
Christian to be one of his followers?” That
brought me into Kosher Law,  Sabbath Law, Gentile requirements and the
like. I gladly started to understand some of the laws and started to
apply them to my life. I applied them to my life because I thought they
were the will of god and had no ill or bad feelings about doing such
things….in fact I found joy in them. It
was around this time, that I seemed be reading blogs on various
Biblical issues and saw that each issue had numerous answers most in
conflict with each other. At the time, I viewed such discrepancies as
more of a political stance of the specific church of the person making
the comment. So, that lead me to the question “What was the real stance
for Christians to take on those issues?”  I mean if we are of one
body….we should be of one mind and Christianity reminded me of a body
with Multiple Personality Disorder. So it was back to the question “What
does god want?” You
would think that answers would be easy, I mean we had the book that had
all the answers….but that could not have been further from the truth.
Finding answers was hard. Each issue had multiple bible verses and each
Bible verse had to be taken to its original Greek Hebrew or Aramaic. In
the end, I found out that there was some issues that when all boiled
down had conflicting answers. Some Hebrew and Greek words have no
English definitions meaning that we really don’t know what it actually
meant…bible scholars just took what ever they thought it meant or what
ever the cause was for the church of that century. This
brought me to the question…..”If they did that, what else could have
been tweaked to serve their own reasons?” the answer for me was “Start
at the beginning and find our the truth…..Genesis here I come. Some of the rules I had was …1.
All scripture is God breathed and useful for teaching, correcting,
rebuking and training in righteousness. Which leads to number two2. All stances had to be supported by other verses besides just one and all verses had to be taken in context. I had a few others but these were the most important…. Genesis
was where the axis started tipping.  Obviously the first issue to come
up was the old Evolution verses Creation Debate. Having gone to a
Mennonite school…Evolution was not in the curriculum. So I basically
was able to start at square one.  I acquired all the books, blogs,
Websites and debates I could on the subject of evolution and creation.
This process was long and for every point made for evolution there was
an answer for creation and visa versa. Then I read a book by of all
people Richard Dawkin’s called ” The Greatest Show On Earth” I was
hesitant about reading this because he was a staunch atheist who has a
very I would say strong but strong is an understatement, view against
god. But I found his book to be strongly informative. It made a very
compelling case for evolution and the evolutionary process. It cited
experiments that could be researched and you could see if the same
conclusions he stated were the conclusions of the scientists as well.
This book was the turning point to my acceptance of evolutions ….over
time I accepted evolution as fact and creation was a myth. Up
until this point I still wrote on my blog like there was nothing
wrong….bible studies….but sometimes my questions and doubts shone
through. From
there the questions kept coming like …..If creation was a myth what
about Adam and eve and marriage?….who can get married?…… Did god
create evil?…..Why does god allow bad things?…….if god doesn’t do
bad things why does seem to be oblivious to some Christians in times of
extreme distress?….why are we called to be fruitful and multiply and
yet some godly people left barren?…..is slavery really wrong?….what
is the role of women in christianity?…. For
every question….there was enough material to make your head spin and
you had to dig for an answer…. eventually it finally came down to
there were a lot of conflicting answers (and sometimes no answers) for
the first time I asked myself “What if god was not real….What if god
really isn’t there? …..I was conflicted had I spent all this time to
find what god wanted to only find out that god might not exist. So
my efforts now turned to the conflicts that nonchristians had with the
bible…..I figured that this was a do or die situation….. Either I
was gonna prove to myself that god existed or it was just a
myth…..again i went to books, blogs, websites and debates….and again
I had enough material to go through……..eventually over time the
Christian self was eroded away until one day I came to the conclusion
….Christianity is a myth…..and bye golly, I’m anatheist…………So the short answer is my journey from Christianity was because of the search for truth……